Sexual abuse, harassment and assault have been all over the news lately. And because of that it becomes more visible how many women all over the world, and also men, have been dealing with the pain that comes from these experiences.
As we are entering a new era, where the female power will be stronger present than ever before, I feel such a strong connection to all living beings on this planet foremost to females. It is ironic, but the people who seem to have all the power and use it in the most disgraceful way are actually helping us to unite our power and connect to our strenghts. The collective becomes much more visible. And women all over the world are connecting in the most powerful way, social media as a supporting channel.
I have never been really open about it publicly, but a few weeks ago I felt that I needed to speak out loud that I too have experienced sexual abuse (not by my parents). I needed to because it felt more uncomfortable not to. I needed to because the things that we think are best to keep private can actually become a part of someone’s healing process once shared. I needed to because it is time for us, women in particular, to stand up and speak out. So I decided to share it, because I wanted to let other women and also men know that they were not alone.
Once I posted a message about the topic on my instagram account (click HERE to read) I realized that I not only needed to share it because of the reasons mentioned above, but also because of me. Because of my own healing process that for a huge part has already been transformed into peace, love, strength, but at moments still can be present in my life.
The first time I dealt with abuse was in my childhood. Nowadays I realize that this experience has influenced my life so much more than I’ve ever did before. A couple of years after that I had another painful experience, based made choices on this damaged foundation – not always attracting the people who had great love for me. Since I strongly believe that I came tho this earth with a mission and I choose my experiences I could be very harsh on myself.
When I grew older I realized that I couldn’t take responsibility for someone else’s actions. I tried to understand where they came from which helped me to understand the person involved. However I also decided not to focus upon that too much. I knew that my journey into healing could really transform into growth once I took responsibility for my own healing proces, forgive myself for blaming myself, understand myself and use my past experiences, that still seemed to have power in my present life, as a bouncing off place to create a new reality. A reality that I am fully living today.
You cannot heal by focusing on your pain. You can only heal by focusing on your power; on the love that you are. Even when you don’t feel so much love or loved. Once you focus on love, you realize that there is great love here for you. That you deserve all the love. That YOU are LOVE. And that LOVE is all that really matters.
Thank you for reading this. Grateful to share this with you.